You can also sign up as Sugar . I have a 13 year old with my boyfriend and we live together. For My Mommy (the cry of an unborn child) We agonized over what to do and spent a week making our decision which whilst incredibly painful was ultimately the right one for us. I know her from my dreams. I didnt want him to be there for me or my baby out of obligation, I wanted him to be happy. We sit in silence for a little while, then I ask him to sit next to me, and he does, all the while looking surprised. Im so confused and torn between getting an abortion or keeping the baby. Im sending love your way, dear one. Maybe you feel deep regret, maybe it was a confusing time, maybe you didn't care at all. That is my story which I have never shared. I cough and drink more water until it goes down, close to you. If you are in the position to do so, please consider becoming a SMBC (single mom by choice). Dear Reverend (name), It is not without much time and thought that I have decided to address myself to you. I feel like Im losing either way; if I get an abortion, Ill most likely regret it, and if I dont, Ill struggle as a single mother. Id give anything to see my baby smile. We dont regret it. .. thank you so much for this. I had a late term surgical abortion, against my will. I know Im going to love him when he is here but in the time being I am just purely struggling. And when that day comes, well both be ready. My mother killed me. Hes verbally abusive, Ive spent all my money on him, no savings, lots of debt he makes the money I just make very little. He reminds me every day and he is resentful towards me like Im some kind of murderer. Im sad, but dont regret it. So many people would love to give that little one a home. A lot of people who are not able to have children would love to adopt. Weve trien for 8 yeats now and decided that if I turned 30 which is Dec of this year and I am not pregnant, we will give up. He just doesnt want another child, but what about me & what I want? The silly thing is I want another child. It would have killed me alive to have given birth to those children and given them a life they did not deserve. My advice to you would be to remember that at the end of the day, and your life, you have to be able to live with yourself, so forget about what your partner wants and do what is right for you. Be strong for me hold on to me I had an abortion back in 1999. All I ask of you is your love and a chance to love you back. I work a half day, then your dad picks me up and we drive to Planned Parenthood. Im broken over this. Reading this story and the comments gave me some of the comfort I needed. This is just not exactly what I wanted for her and Im scared to lose my best friend in a sense because Im not quite ready to grow up that fast. nothing was ever the same between us. Walgreens confirmed on March 2 that it will not distribute abortion pills in numerous statesincluding to some states where abortion is legalafter Republican attorneys general (AG) in 21 states told the company that it risked breaking federal law should it do so, Politico first reported.. Walgreens, the second-largest pharmacy chain in the United States, made the decision after receiving . This was so emotional ? I am really struggling with the choice, even though I know it made most sense. Thank you for this I hope one day Ill find a way to be okay, I really feel stupid and sad Im pregnant and everyone doesnt support my relation ship.i now want to abort and sadly get over my man. He abandoned me and hung up on me when I told him a few weeks ago. Nothing in life is easy but in this case you should try making a list. I might have forgotten what I learned and failed my license exam in the future since Id have to take a leave. It means so much to see it spoken by another. We started trying, but didnt expect it to come so soon. When I first find out I was shocked because it was unplanned and I know he doesnt want a baby yet he said he is not ready and me either but deep down I dont want to do this at all and i wanna see that cute little face:(( We agreed to do abortion. It was also great that you had someone to give you a choice. Its been two years since my abortion and I always think about that little heart beat. Im always hunted by guilt almost everyday, same as you Im also working in Nursery school, so I always see kids that reminds of my poor one. Shes only known her boyfriend for 3 months and now they are contemplating a forever type of future together to raise this child. I stand beside her and encourage her that she made the best decision she could. My boyfriend was completely supportive of me and even now when I talk about the baby he knows that it makes me feel better. I had my first and only abortion 10 years ago at age 22, my partner who turned into my husband were together for only 2 months and the uncertainty left me with the choice to dissolve my pregnancy at 5 weeks. The 20-week ban adds another hurdle. I stared and I watched the second line darken and become more prominent. I cant make up my mind. Gone are the days when the wind would touch my face, gone are the days when youre the wind. Its not being selfish if you think about it deeper. My boyfriend and I have only been dating a few months. Raising her was not easy on my own but he convinced me to move back so he can have his family. My name is also Ashley and im also at the 10 year mark. Mamma you knew when I was placed in your womb. The Dublin Declaration , signed by over 1,000 medical professionals, states "As experienced practitioners and researchers in obstetrics and gynecology, we affirm that direct abortion - the. Well, I made it out alive. At 18 weeks, April and her husband found out that their baby had lethal skeletal dysplasia. I dont know if hes being dramatic or not but he thinks we will lose our home because we are barely making ends meet with one in daycare. Ive just got an amazing job that I cant afford to give up, I suffered badly with my mental health the first time round. I too feel like I will regret it if I do this, Thanks for this wonderful piece. I am now 48 and very much regret it and really dont know how to go on, but somehow we must. My parents would have had to raise the child on the other side of the country and I knew I wouldnt have been able to bear being away from it. Thank you so much for sharing this. I just hope that I can. By Ronald Doe. If my partner would of came to me and said he wanted to keep this baby I would have and I would of felt more love for him because his courage. There was also this paranoia about who the dad was. I failed my baby boy and Im still trying to figure out how to be at peace with myself and sometimes Im so scared I never will be. I always wanted to be a mum I adore children but back then I couldnt keep it . I will terminate in 3 days. Im at a loss. My biggest fear is not be Abel to give my girl a sibling I will be 39 in a couple of days so . This moved me. This would have delayed everything. It's just cruel." Now, faced with having one in our early 40s is terrifying. Out loud, we weigh the facts: I have my schooling, Id lose my position of junior teacher if I dont do the teacher training program, thus losing the ability to become a head teacher one day. the world makes us feel weak. I move into the mini-counseling session with your dad, and we are firm on our decision. Thats when I called him and told him he needed to come home, that I wasnt mad at him anymore for all the horrible things he had recently done, and that we needed to talk. It has the potential to work, but like you said, doesnt make sense no matter how hard you look at it. What if I was never able to get back on track with school and start my career? Even if you have others support around you, it can so easily feel like youre going through it alone. Sophie R. Pregnancy Poems Does anyone else feel similar? Im 33. 36 years old and its looking like I wont get another chance. I havent gone one day without thinking of it and causing major heartache, especially as family members and friend have now kids. I pulled up my pants, didnt flush, and walked back into the classroom where twelve toddlers slept. Its been 44 years since my abortion and I think of her every day. I cant share any of this with him. Im in the same situation except with two different dads. A group of doctors and conservative medical groups is suing to overturn the FDA's approval of mifepristone and a federal judge could rule to cut off . She told me he has a live in girlfriend for 6 years and the girl has a 10 year old son that is not his but he helped raise. I'll make you breakfast on Mother's Day My boyfriend and I have been together for 15 years, we have a 9 year old & make about $80K (maybe more) combined income but yet Im contemplating abortion. Colorado. But then, Im scared that I will have to raise a child by myself. We do not have the money, the room, were too old, etc. I had my abortion at 5 weeks and 1 day i knew it was the right thing to do but i did want my baby I was scared but overwhelmed i didnt want to go thru what i did i remember a time i was for abortion but until u have to go thru one u have no right to talk i too also got my sonogram which was supposed to be a joyful experience it still was because wow it was beautiful .i love and hope to see my baby one day .. I need to get a surgical abortion on Monday and he cant even decide if he wants to come and support me. Im not pregnant. I went into the first floor bathroom and peed on that little white-tipped stick. I dont want to undo my choice, but its still so hard to live with sometimes. Struggling with the decision I made. Ive never thought Id be in this position and feel so weak and lost. You are raising two kids of his first marriage and the least he can do is to man up and respect your decision of keeping this baby. I know this choice that I am making will be the hardest but I know in the long run, I will be saving my child from being born into a dysfunction environment I at least owe my child that. This is your decision and you must do what feels right for you. I looked at them and I couldnt believe that that potential was now inside me. I chose to have an abortion for many reasons, including those I just mentioned. I am yet to book the appointment but i know it is the better choice. I too am going through my second one and I feel absolutely horrible, so I completely understand what you are feeling. How difficult this truly My and my husband have been diagnosed with infertility. He advised me continuing the pregnancy would be a danger and I decided more so on my own after talking with my mother if it was the right decision to make for the baby. I have tried to persuade her to look at forums or see a psychiatrist to help her through the guilt but she doesnt want to be associated with the stigma attached with it. his mom knew, she had taken me to my appointment. If you cant, then dont be guilty. I felt empty after too, 10 years later and I still have regret. And I dont feel well. I would never say that Im over it and my biggest regret is not being careful enough to avoid getting pregnant in the first place. Oh mommy, I can't go on anymore help me 17 years have gone by since you made that fateful decision. It also makes me proud to know that I was conceived out of love. Published Jul 29, 2015. In my mind, Ive raised a child on my own, and even with all the struggles, raising her has been the most rewarding experience ever. Each holiday, any milestone or time marker, what my world would be if I had chosen differently. If your willing to share that is. And even though he ejaculated irresponsibly, and voiced that he wanted me to become pregnant.. as soon as I was, we both knew what needed to happen and he was on board. Am i allowed to feel i did it for the baby? I was accepted into the Montessori teacher training program two days prior. Says he can no longer trust me as I betrayed him for the past 10 years. I felt like death every day sometimes unable to stay out longer than 2 hours outside. I still wonder what if. Im in a very similar situation, I have a 3 year old, my fianc and I decided to try for number 2. Mom's Letter to Baby During Pregnancy A Letter to My Unborn Baby: Here's What I Promise You September 25, 2017 by Laura Marie Meyers Dear Baby, There are still a few months until we. I just broke up with my boyfriend 4 days ago after finding out that he has been cheating on me.Deep down I knew that I was pregnant after 20 days late of my periods and my breasts becoming tender.Today I Decided to take the test and found out that Im Pregnant.I lost my mother a year ago and do not have anyone who will support me and the baby financially.It hurts that Weve always had conversations about having a baby one daday,now that it is happening and Im all alone,I feel like a stupid.termination is the only option but I dont even know What to expect. I am turning 23 in two days, on July 24th funny enough. I was very confused. I didnt go through with the abortion, I couldnt once seeing my baby but ever since deciding to keep my baby Im still. I have seen God cry when rocking little babies in His big loving arms. I fear that if i leave him he will tell my friends and family. And way farther along than I thought. And soon I'll get my own fingers and toes. I felt very depressed after I let you go - many days were hard to face, some I didn't. I told myself it was hormones. I have been battling with the decision for some time now, had an appointment yesterday and didnt go because the voices of those who tell me I need to have the courage to keep the baby keep ringing in my head and those that guilt trip me on the decision of abortion and how wrong it is. I was clearly going to get my period. I like the word dad because Father is in Heaven. I am thinking of you xx. I am pregnant now and I know many other girls who have had an abortion that have had children. Although I did it for health reasons I am still recovering. Ugh. Even my close friends dont know this time. I was very helpless. Did you spell check your submission? However, I was quite blue that I was no longer pregnant and I actually experienced a bit of anger as the situation brought up unpleasant feelings from the past. I had not passed my probation period and I wanted to prove myself, to be as good as I could be. I hear you and Im there for you. Thank you for your bravery! I look back at him as the door closes behind me and I feel alone, until I remember youre there with me. All I can think about is that Ill no longer be able to turn to her when I feel like doing something that stupid teenagers do. One day you will be an amazing mum, dont doubt that! Have you done it? The dad had permit and he wanted to have the baby And he even offer to get merried because I also was afraid of telling my family and I said no with in 3 or 4 days after founding out I abort our baby . Norma McCorvey, the plaintiff in Roe v. Wade, never had the abortion she was seeking. It was beautiful. But I dont regret it either. And the warmth of the sun on my back. I was 5 weeks and didnt know it. I was heavily against murder but I know its for the best. There arent any protesters out that day and Im grateful. I just found out I am pregnant at 42. Don't Forget That I Was Here By Gone by The Head and The Heart plays, and I publicly cry at the lyric. We want to expand our family but we werent expecting to do it so soon. Leet had an abortion at age 15 in the early 1980s. But I dont want an abortion.. its heartbreaking ? Unfortunately my health started to take a turn for the worse. I cry also. Im balling my eyes out googling help topics because I miss her so much. I dont want to lose you. Published by Family Friend Poems March 2017 with permission of the author. I wish I had advice or something magical to say to make everything all betterI dont. Your dad looks at me and then the tests before putting them down, one in my lap and the other in his, but it falls in between us how symbolic. i know its just rational thinking, but it still hurts a lot. Its what he wants. Love to each of you xxxxxxxxx. Were you touched by this poem? I am totally against abortion. "Everything about a later termination is already so incredibly difficult even just picking up the phone to make the appointment. My husband is pretty headstrong about me aborting.. my heart is broken. I am experiencing so much guilt and pain going through this again, especially since I am 32 years old with no children and two months away from completing my masters. She assures me, You dont have to do this. I tell her, I do. I compose myself. And while sometimes they are not always as sensitive to the subject as Id like (not on purpose) it feels so relieving to tell someone. Hi. You were there, so was my existence. I know my baby deserves a life I couldnt of given her now or at that time and I know one day she will come back to me, I get excited when i think about meeting her finally one day when we are both ready, I wish I had support here so I could cry to someone who gets it, Im 23 and I had my abortion at 5 weeks and three days in April. All these fears at once can seem unsurmountable, but when you help her chip away at each, she'll begin to feel more confident. I wanted to be your everything. I worry everyday about what y child will be like when he is here, how y decision is going to have an impact on the people around me, on those closesest to me. Although your husband is not supportive now, he no doubt will grow to love your little child. Its so unfair that guys help in making the baby. This is not a fictional story. It is a deep sorrow. Then told me I was over reacting for waking up in the middle of the night over and over crying. Now she feels she let her self and everyone else down. Three years later, I look back on that day as the most difficult, important, unforgettable, and un-regrettable moment of my life. Its been 7 years since my abortion, and I miss her. As a pro-life advocate, I've written and submitted many articles pertaining to abortion to our local newspaper. Despite the fact that I used contraception, I still got pregnant last week. So heartbroken. Someone please talk and guide me into a direction. Best of luck! How do you know? I pull out the test and show him the two pink lines. Not until Im sure. Youre feelings and emotions emulate mine. Im not financially free..and my boyfriend said he will literally kill me if I decide to keep the baby. I know my future would never have turned out as well as it had, had I not had the abortion :). My sister just found out she is pregnant and I congratulated her on the phone. Its almost the same situation. After a further 2 weeks things started to settle down. The relationship was very toxic over all. I was worried I would have preeclampsia again, which could put baby and me in danger. You are making the best decision for yourself at this point in time , I feel like I can relate and that give me a lil strength. Thank you for writing this. I just wish I presented her with an easy choice. I cant imagine what I would have done if I wasnt able to have an abortion. And I think I would have either way I would have decided so why am I finding it so hard to accept and move on. I pray God gives me another chance and send him back to me one day. But I cant help but feel a deep sense of loss and regret over ending the pregnancy. My name is John, and. Since graduating, I was lucky to be hired right away at my DREAM job in my field. Im not mad at you anymore. we are just buying a house and i know money isnt good right now, but i cant help but hate his kids now bc i had to give up mine. I just found out Im pregnant after splitting with my partner and having already gone through 2 miscarriages. Im almost 6 weeks pregnant and although I want this baby, my husband does not. On the day of the appointment I cried so much I couldnt get myself to do it and as time went on I decided to keep him. . Even with his support, the support of my mother, sister, and friends.. Im afraid that in a few years I wont be able to based on my cervical health. Now that he had finally accepted it, it officially became reality. For some reason, Im not moved, but still, I dont want to lose you. Would adoption be something you could manage? I got married in December, I just found out that I am pregnant last week, Im running my masters degree and my husband isnt financially stable, feeling really sad and confused about what to do next. I was wondering how you are feeling. (Sense my sarcasm, little one.) In a saline abortion procedure, caustic saline solution was injected into the mother's womb. I feel like a failure for being the one who could not be seen as a wonderful choice to raise a baby with. I was 17 yrs old when I got pregnant, At that age I was not ready, alot of expectations from my parents await me plus the fact that I got pregnant by the person I dont love.so Ive decided to abort it by means of massage. I felt you crying when you went to the doctor. Its killing me and Im crying every night. He wants me to get an abortion, but I just dont think I can do it. I live with my boyfriend hes 39yrs old. Take care. Please give me some advice Im so lost right now. I said this is the hormones speaking and she did the right thing. I am a teacher and take care of infants to two year olds, Im devastated because in a better situation I would have kept this child. However he didnt. Ill always be one. Because o hate that its a decision. A week before the abortion he changed his mind and got attached to the baby. The 'pro-choice' movement argues that a woman should have a choice to keep . She / he would have been 9 years old. She was already the mom of a young girl and in an abusive relationship. We then move to a different room and wait for the doctor. January 22, 2021 - The anniversary of Roe v Wade - 48 years of legal abortion in all fifty states. I take his hand in mine and say, Everything thats happened the past few weeks doesnt matter anymore. I feel like I have to get the abortion or he will resent me and our relationship will be over. Abortion Poem Letter To Mommy From The Womb To be honest, I have always felt strongly against abortion. My baby fever was at an all time high I was even looking at baby clothes. The connection happened from day one. Sometimes I still feel her, I pray that shes come back. I havent seen her since after I delivered her, I immediately went whom and my sister arranged everything after she found out what happened , because I needed help so I called her.. And sent a special angel to look after me It cant be easy and its hurtful for the man youre suppose to be with to embed abortion in your head after telling you, you two could try again. I thought the tears would stop but they dont. Common Mistakes: the word "i" should be capitalized, "u" is not a word, and "im" is spelled "I'm" or "I am". This story is so touching and Im thankful to have come across it. Oh and one more thing abortion doesnt affect your fertility. I feel awful. I dont know what to do at all. I want to be able to call you "Mom," and hear you say I'm yours. I was never able to have a child, she was my first and only chance. And I don't need a room filled with toys. I couldnt face a potential miscarriage, still birth or birth defects and my doctors had no guidance for me and what I was dealing with regarding my health. You will be in my thoughts and in my heart. I went through every logistic financial, physical, mental to see if I could go through with it. Me too, yesterday I found out I was 8 weeks pregnant and my boyfriend also doesnt want to keep it.